This post is a very sad one.  It is one that I think needs to be posted.  It is for the mothers who have suffered perinatal loss. 

I think there is nothing more traumatizing and devastating than the loss of a child.  In fact, just the very thought of it make me want to cry my eyes out.  The reason why I am writing this, because I have been thinking of this a lot lately.  My friend recently lost her full term baby.  She was ready to deliver and her baby was born without a heartbeat. 

I guess I want to write this post to acknowledge the incredible strength these women have.  I myself don’t have this and hope to god I never have to find the strength somewhere.  Once a fetus is 20 weeks, the parents have to deliver the baby.  What should have been a fabulous, miraculous experience, has now turned into something so devastating and heartbreaking.   They have to find the strength within to hold their baby (if they wish), they can have pictures done, and footprints done for keepsakes.  They have to say goodbye to the miracle that was created within their womb, that they nourished inside of them for numerous months.  They have already created such a bond with this baby, and now they have to find the strength to say goodbye.

If that wasn’t enough; the parents then have to plan their baby’s funeral.  How can this happen?  Why does this happen?  I guess we won’t really get the answer.  All I know, is that I think that having to go through this would be the worst, most unbearable pain ever.  I think the strongest of people are the mothers and fathers that have to survive through this.

My goal is not to depress you in any way.  It is to raise awareness that this does happen.  I work in a hospital and I see it happening on a regular basis.  People always talk about the happy moments of childbirth, but nobody ever mentions the people that prevail through the most difficult times.

Give a special hug and kiss to your little one and realize that you are blessed.  For those who have lost their little angels, know that you are not alone and that you have support around you.

This post is dedicated to the memory of Maya.  May she watch over her parents, brother and sister.

Natara had her follow-up appointment with the eye doctor to see if the glasses were working.  In only two short months, her eyesight is almost equal now with her glasses on.  Thankfully, Natara doesn’t need to move to a patch now because the glasses are improving her eyesight.

The next three years are crucial and she needs to wear those glasses 24/7.  I am so thrilled that we are seeing improvements and she loves wearing those glasses because she “looks like mommy” and she is “growing up”.

Keep up the good work baby girl!!!!

Time can be beautiful.  You watch your life around you develop into something so spectacular beyond your wildest dreams.  You develop as a person, and with your spouse and family; you evolve together into a stronger sense of being.

However, time can also be very challenging; especially when you feel you don’t have enough of it.  Am I alone out there?  I feel like I just don’t have enough time at all to do anything.  I have a “to do list” about two miles long.  I have piles of laundry waiting to be done because nobody has time to fold them.  I spend everyday trying to get my house organized; only to have a tornado of toys storm through it an hour later.

I have a pool full of algae, a garden full of weeds, and a lawn that needs to be mowed.  I have clothes I need to sift through, a new bbq that needs to be put together, and I have to somehow make time to practice fine motor skills with my oldest daughter.

I just wish sometimes there were more hours in the day to get everything accomplished.  I am in no way a control freak, but I do like a certain amount of order in my house to feel satisfied. 

To make matters worse, I really want to try and start exercising.  I just want to feel energized.  But when do I find the time between work, work at home, and spending quality time with the family?  Now thats a great question.

My oldest daughter will be starting school in the fall and it feels like just yesterday I gave birth to her.  Where does the time go?  I can now see why mothers cry as they send their babies off to school.  It is such an overwhelming experience as you go through the motions of everyday life while time passes you by.

Having said this, after ranting and feeling so overwhelmed by lack of time to finish everything in;  I can rest easy in knowing that I have spent the majority of my time with my family; watching my children grow up and putting my family first.  Yes, my house is a mess and I am sure the neighbours think I am lazy.  However, I am sure other parents feel the same sense of time constraints from time to time.

Cherish each moment you have with your family and for yourself.  Even though it is frustrating, chores can go on the back burner.  After twenty years have flown you by, you will only remember the quality times and not the chores.